Love Mail

Love you?
Of course I do.
That's why I'll never let you see
How much, ever again;
I'll never come so close
That you can look down upon
My soul through my eyes
For the love you see will blind you
With its intensity.
I'll never come that close again, because
My love makes you blind - it once did.
Love's sarcastic alter ego
Could never be love
And the realization of this difference
I love.

Hate-Mail

Why would the Fates engineer
A rift of such magnitude between us?
Show me an answer and I'll show you a genius.
Anger hotter than icy, serac-white steel;
Nerves grating on an overwrought conscience
Impaled upon a spear of Guilt on the floor of
A bottomless pit of Pain.
My feelings... yours... a fallacy
We couldn't even feel anymore.
If there were anything I could relinquish,
It would be the part of you
I snatched and destroyed culpably
In the name of love.
The helplessness of helplessness
I hate.

The Break Of Dawn (on occasion of realization, repentance and regeneration)

Inhibition giving way
At both ends, paying heedless thought
To reason, levity
Receiving priority over standards we both
Set for ourselves
The thrill of novelty too dominant
Over inherent values
Forgotten in what will be remembered
The hottest summer
Before the rains of realization drenched
Conscience spawning guilt
Attempting to recapture what we felt
Throes yet undulled
Searching so foolishly in a friendship
That is complete
For want of roads to nowhere
We set out
Crossing unventured paths and sacred limits
Again and again
Neither coming, nor going, only treading
Less than water
But it felt great, we justify
Our hearts say
We know the reasons we should
Employ to destroy
Destruction sweetly intoxicating, inebriating, so innocent
Like we were
Aware of solecism, submissive the same
To a cause
We have absolutely no belief in
Fleeting pleasure trips
Following the needs that need be
Crushed to avoid
Consequences unsavoury to friend and friendship
Tested by temptation
Teasing, tantalising, threatening, tormenting, torturing, terminating,
Yes, almost, our
Keen assimilation of moments and memories
Marred indefinitely throughout
The span and knowledge of Sin
We have control
To seize and cease before time
Falls between us
Unable to be reversed and regret
Dominating our lives
Crystallizing into indelible characterization we decide
The way followed
Each other a map to us
Reflecting mutual ideals
Opting for positivity and reliability brought
Through trust reinforced
As a promise we shall keep
Respect the core
We are together and will be
Giving us always
Days ahead filled with sunshine refulgent
Not as hot
But deliciously warm, just as comfortable
As imagination unconfined
Letting the fruit of friendship ripen
Just about right.

How Do I Love Thee? Let Me Elucidate...

Where do I love thee? Let me recollect the place

I love thee where we first met,
At Scintillation, my college fête,
Where the best thing I saw was your face.
I love thee when I am at home
Writing poetry to you, or prose,
Or singing love songs till I'm hoarse
In the shower when I'm covered with foam.
I love thee on the potholed road
As I make my way to college
I certainly deem it a privilege
To think of you when I'm bored!
And, if God choose, I'd always impart:
I love thee in the recesses of my heart.

***

When do I love thee? Let me recount the days.
I love thee when we agree to meet
At Corner House for your birthday treat,
Where hot chocolate fudge is a craze.
I love thee when we stealthily speak
On the phone, way beyond midnight,
Long after the stars give way to daylight
And the sky is ablaze with the sunrise streak.
I love thee when we meet online
And end up chatting for two hours,
Using smileys and little red flowers -
Thou art, to say the least, divine!
And, if God choose, I'd never change the way
I love thee, every moment of every day.

***

Why do I love thee? Let me present my case.
I love thee because you argue and fight;
Compliment, praise and say I'm right,
And leave me be when I need my space.
I love thee because you treat me
With care that's so genuine;
Yet, at times, there's mischief in
Your eyes when you smile so innocently.
I love thee because you understand
Me whenever I'm unreasonable,
And later, always take the trouble
To explain and offer a helping hand.
And, if God choose, I'd never conceal
That I love thee because you're my ideal.