Beautiful Fetish

Logophile. Blatherskite. Desperately disparate.

Paulo Coelho - Eleven Minutes


"Yes, I love you very much, as I have never loved another man, and that is precisely why I am leaving, because, if I stayed, the dream would become reality, the desire to possess, to want your life to be mine… in short, all the things that transform love into slavery. It’s best left like this - a dream."

A Tarman


Even a tarman goes crazy
Feels like driving off the road,
Like eating chocolate until his blood sugar
Begins to reflect on his face.
He smokes a stealthy cigarette
And pushes a hidden urge,
Often in his own direction.
But the face of a tarman is a mirror,
Expressing only what others expect him to.
No, he’s not black, only around the edges,
Where he threatens to slip sometimes.
He lurks past soundlessly,
Leaving a million secrets to be guessed.

He is selective in his association,
With the ability to distinguish between
Those who get his work done
And those who smile, and smile,
And remain villains.
A tarman is a candle flame,
Scorching with a look.
Everyone wants to be a tarman.
She wants to look like him.
She wants her helpless addiction, her affliction, her needs, her hopelessness,
Her brain-mapping, her stealthy pacts with God,
Her cluelessness, her ruthless attachment
To be transmutated into a tarman
Because he exists beautifully without it all.
His experiences don’t show in his expressions of speech
Or otherwise.

A tarman has equal relationships, has as much love as he gives.
He’s indifferent to lesser mortals, oblivious, almost,
His deeds reflect in his peaceful demeanour;
His nails are never bitten to the quick.
A tarman saves the best chocolates for himself,
And, sometimes, for the ones who love him,
Not for the ones he loves.
A tarman is not freaky;
She’s learning to mend her freaky ways.

I heard the vocalization of a tarman today.
He needed ears.
He wasn’t afraid, or cautious, or hesitant.
He’s almost invisible. He doesn’t know how she craves to be like him.
To him, she’s invisible, too.
He has self-respect that she’s trying to copy.
He doesn’t go whenever they call, he waits
Until the best goes by
And all he has to do is pick.
He has friends, she’s getting there,
She’s got a few herself.

A tarman doesn’t give a damn what you think of him.
He believes in himself
And his ability to win friends and influence people,
Or something like that.
A tarman waits until he is ready for the world,
Not the other way around.
He reads poems written for him.
She writes poems, hoping they’ll be understood someday.


Fossil










If you want to comfort me,
Give me
Every caress you took away,
Every tear I’ve created in destruction.
Return the skin
In each tiny crevice below my lashes,
Each quintuple comb,
Each flash of non-profit cheer
Guaranteed to lower stock value.
Send back
Fibres of unwonted attachment drenched with
The colour of Death,
My criminal barbs, my spatchcocking,
Crumbs of momentary fulfillment.

If you care to pacify me,
Return my untainted vision that grows beautiful externally,
The sight whose light you absorbed.
Leave me the security of a limb to shade me;
Access without threats,
An open door.

If you must console me,
Retrieve atmospheric melody,
Bitten clicks encoding disguised promises,
Quanta exterminated;
The least valuable of my concerns.

If you want to take the pain away,
Restore the untampered hopes,
My belief in your thaumaturgy.
Adjust the extra air, the chemical imbalance, the ichor;
The tactile suburbs of my mind you occupy.
Defy the addictive paronomasia and thought-transference.

If you wish to empathise,
Will away the blemishes that convict you,
Treat each delusion subjectively,
Replenish mineral resources and muscle-power;
Turn ice into earth again,
Reverse satyriasis;
De-fossilise me.

If you seek to offer solace,
Return my borrowed jewels,
The melanin-curves I dispatched with the breeze with
Disyllabic formation.
Hold on to the pixels governing genius.
Forgive my Dominiquanity.
Reconstruct disintegrated flora,
Retrace steps of navigation; exploration,
Discovery and invention sans necessity.
Smooth furrows hidden by locked glamour,
Folds artistically redraped in an operatic survey.

If you think you’d like to help,
Unvoice the soft, spoken silence,
Return the beseeching, the spasmodic imploring;
The ropes of remembrance entangled like a vine
In your subconscious.

If you wish to save me,
Hold me back if I want to
Acid life out of my veins,
Preserve no blood in my alcohol stream.
Am I strange, or is it just life;
Does excessive rebellion make me ultra-mundane?


Glass Iceberg

Welcome back.
After the break.
It feels like there was a blackout during the interval.
I feel like I hit an iceberg
I was frozen
Till the sun came up again.
Let the coldness lie... who wants to discuss it
When hearts are melting,
And mine tells me you're here to stay?
The wave ebbed from "goodbye" to a gentle "hello";
A glass "hello", or chocolate, when I think of yours.
A "hello" that could shatter, or sweeten...
Or reduce to a watery abyss.
A raft saved me just in time -
Riding the crest beats anything, anywhere.

A Change In Weather

Temperatures, like phone tariffs on the rebound, have plummeted.
The sky has actually been displaying
Clouds at the frequency of your messages.
One wakes up sometimes to observe patches reminiscent of puddles left behind by
April showers that always arrive at the end of May.
Doors bang with the intensity of the breeze.
It rains; mangoes still reign.