So Personal

It's time for an identity check. Mine. Everywhere I look, I see people who are better than me. Achievers. I feel as if I have to do something in life. Be a better person. I want people to like me for who I am. Yes, I do. Facades do not become me, from the way I see it. Yet, due to some reason, my characteristics are keeping a certain person from getting closer to me. He prefers to go out with his best friend. Because now she loves him. And he doesn't want to meet me, because I love him. It's so obvious. Yet, he is a genuine person. She said the same thing. I said it too - such a real person. I must wake up and see that I am no less than her. So what if I haven't yet realized myself? Feelings must be kept in check. This is a law of humanity.

I spoke to six people today. I do have friends. People do appreciate me. They care about me. There are those who are trying to take advantage of me. I have to turn their advantage into my advantage. Have to wait for love. Games will be played. Have to try and be "it" all the time. Won't do to get caught. Have to avoid being worked up and uptight about being "it"; should learn to enjoy it, derive fun out of it, learn new ways to handle, and win, the game of life. Blissful. Put myself into the peace mode, which evolves from the "piece" mode. And look around and see how much I actually have. Though he complains I'm too close, he doesn't make any effort to back off. Read "of choices." Am I not a human enriched with the best of everything? I am in my senses. I know what's right. I derive enjoyment from a few things.

Dear God, help me strengthen the relations I've forged, and not let negativity come in between. I am not behaving entirely as I'm supposed to. Go easy on me, help me... I beg of you. I'm sure life will smoothen out eventually. And I'm waiting for it.

Friends:Hip!

Your friendship tastes of honey: natural, sweet;
Even more so because
Life would 'bee' bitter without you;
You take away the sting.
The hues of your friendship span
Grey, for your intellect;
White, for the congeniality of your smile;
Green, for the games we've won -
Who cares about the ones we lost;
Yellow, for the roses you give me;
Blue, for the jeans you look so good in;
Brown, for the honesty in your eyes.
Wisdom interlaced with quirky quips
That only you could come up with...
Aged a third of a three-score, your friendship is
Innocent maturity; I kid you not.
Intelligence Quotient, Boron, Aluminium -
A confluence of science and the humanities;
I knew friendship was an institution,
But your friendship is an education.
Logic and emotion fused in a perfectly harmonious blend,
Your friendship is a stable state of happiness
Which I like in large doses.
Balm, for the winter,
Block, for the summer...
Soothing me in times of discomfiture;
Energy which revitalises me every day,
Your friendship is magic potion that never disappears.
It is like a dress that fits perfectly -
I would never alter the way I feel about you;
You're made of the finest fabric
And your humour leaves me in stitches.
You are a secret recipe
Whose ingredients I'm slowly discovering, one by one.
I truly relish your friendship
And I would never be too satiated to savour some more.
A golden classic whose words I'll never forget,
Your friendship is an anthem in times of jubilation,
A lullaby when I need comfort;
A song which will always remain at the top of my chart.
A rare, priceless diamond, you make me feel
Richer for having known you...
Your value increases with time,
And you are my best friend.
The length of your friendship right now
Is five feet and thirteen inches,
But I hope it grows in such a way
That it will last, and last forever.