If I Had Your Love…

Justice-Maker, the time has come
When I should ask you
Whether the scales are balanced or not.
There’s nothing more I could possibly add
To what I’ve already said, but you
Have disclosed little to me.
Are you hesitant, or are you just biding your time?
Are you indifferent, or are you only trying to be cautious?
Not merely questions I wish you would answer,
But these are a reflection of my feelings.
Emotions that have been dominating, controlling my life lately;
Feelings, the likes of which are still unbeknownst to you;
You have perceived but a fraction of them.
How I long to show them to you in their entirety.
Justice-Maker, you have an opinion of the world
And your philosophy rings forever in my ears.
You craved love but when
I gave you mine, you neither
Acknowledged nor reciprocated it.
And I do not know, yet, what your brilliant mind formulates.
Do I crush the hope that you’ve planted in my heart?
Do I, instead, allow my love to take root and blossom?
I will eventually know; time will tell, even if you don’t.
Never before has life been so tumultuous:
My mind in a state of emotional conflict, while my body
Completely at rest; externally peaceful, raging inside.
Nothing could be more dangerous.
Please give me deliverance, as only you can.
Justice-Maker, visualize the circumstance.
Not destiny, or madness. Not magic, or luck.
If I had your love, as you have mine, it would be just…
A source of happiness for me.