The reason I've become so argumentative of late is that I'm trying to pick out your flaws - some discrepancy in your nature that I might have overlooked before. I'm trying to find fault with you so that I can concentrate on your shortcomings and thereby stop loving you. But I can't seem to find anything wrong with you! I don't mean to imply that you're perfect - you're not. But over time, I've come to accept all your characteristics as part of your nature; part of who you are - the person I originally fell in love with.
You're a wonderful human being. Everything you say and do is based on genuine care and concern - whether it's calling me when I'm sick; or listening to me when I have something to say; or coming to meet me on time, every time; or being in touch all the time... giving me the only flowers I've ever received... pacifying me after an argument... it's all the little things you do that made me love you, because nobody else does them, you know.
I guess you would behave the same way with all your friends, but no one has treated me the way you do. You want me to forget about us having a future together, but you're still doing everything that made me fall in love in the first place - you're being yourself. I don't know how to get out of this. If I tell you that the way to make me stop loving you is to stop being the way you are with me, I know I'll lose one of my best friends. I wish I could tell you this; even if I did, I wish you could understand. Obviously, I would choose friendship with silence than no friendship with everything out in the open. I love you too much to stop loving you.
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